| Fat mom |
Fat mom " I knew that Mom wasn't trying to talk me out of anything, only trying to prepare me for the inevitable. But fat mom sank me into a deep depression anyway. I went to the beach anyway, but I just walked up and down the water's edge while Kelly and Susan danced. "Come on, Charlie!" Susan called as I came close to the pavilion, "I'd like to dance with you. Please?" "But you're with Kelly," I protested. "What difference does that make? We came here to have fun didn't we? And I already know I've got no future with you two, so let's just have a good time, ok?" I did go and dance with Susan, along with about three other girls, but there was no magic; no spark. Suddenly I wanted to dance with Kelly! And why the hell not! But we didn't. When fat mom came right down to fat mom I simply didn't have nearly the courage I'd thought I had, especially after losing the friendship of one girl I was sure would understand. "You weren't much fun today," Kelly accused after we'd dropped Susan off. "Yeah I guess so," I agreed, "I was kinda bummed out over Janet." "Why? Are you starting to wish you could go out with her?" "Not starting, Kelly. I've always wished I could be more normal. But I'm not; I love you, and that's not gonna change. I only wish... oh never mind, you know what I'm gonna say." "Yes I do," Kelly agreed, "And every time that happens you end up down in the dumps for a week or two. Is that where we're headed again?" "I dunno, Kelly," I answered. And then I saw her looking at me. Those liquid eyes again! They said much more than she could ever verbalize. "NO, dammit!" I suddenly exclaimed. "Hell no! Not this time! I am what I am and if Janet or anybody else doesn't like fat mom, then they'll just have to deal with fat mom any way they can. |